Do it for yourself

My partner is amazing. Really amazing. He’s loved me for who I am for the past two years, finds my curves sexy and tells me I’m beautiful every single day. This makes my SW journey soooo much easier because I’m doing it for one person and one person only. Me!

He’s happy when I lose weight and happy to eat the SW meals that I cook but he always maintains that I’m beautiful to him no matter what, and I hope that everybody in the world can find that kind of unconditional, non-judgemental love in someone else.

He put on three stone while we were in the states, everybody thought it was acceptable to poke fun at him but absolutely nobody mentioned my own weight gain – funny huh – men can obviously take it, they don’t have insecurities or feelings. Fuck that. He’s still my gorgeous sexy Cypriot man and while he’s trying to lose weight (and it’s all dropping off) I’m so glad he’s doing it for his own health and happiness. 

I’ve found at the end of the day if you try and change for someone else they’ll just find something else that they can pick at about you, so fuck it do it for you and be happy. You can be selfish sometimes.

I am not happy in my body, I love the beauty of curvy plus size women so I by no means want to be stick thin. But I want to lose weight, be healthier and I really want the confidence that these gorgeous plus size women exude. I follow a Facebook group called “Fuller figure fuller wardrobe” and the confidence and body love that these fuller figure women display inspires me, they support, encourage and love each other and it’s amazing! I posted in it for the first time the other day because I felt great going to my best friends 21st party and the compliments and love I got from complete strangers was Incredibly encouraging and fantastic.

So my message for today is go for it, do it for yourself, be selfish and love yourself whatever you may think about your appearance because confidence is everything. And find someone who loves you for who you are 🙂 ❤️ have a good day y’all 

Day 1 of the rest of my life

Well Hello!

I met with a beautiful amazing friend tonight and she shared how she has blogged her uni experience and feelings which was a satisfying release and comfort to her. Well yes I am a student at uni too and I’ve always got a lot of emotion to release but my latest venture is to start Slimming World, by no means an easy decision as I’ve always been quite anti-fad diets and believe that people yoyo with these things BUT I’ve just come home 2 stone heavier after a year in the states and I needed a drastic lifestyle change.

You know how it is in the states, the culture revolves around food and drink and believe me I had a ball but I hate my body now more than ever (and I’ve hated my body a long time) so I was grateful to my ma who held my 21 year old hand and said “let’s do this together”.

Third week in and I’ve just received my half stone award!! A total of 8.5lb down and I’m so so proud of myself. I have practically cut alcohol and fatty snacky food out and I really haven’t missed it, it really frickin works this SW thing!! I feel full, I’ve enjoyed my food, I’ve loved getting back to cooking healthy and beautifully tasting meals AND you can still enjoy some naughty treats 🙂

So after my lovely friend told me about WordPress I thought yeah, why not! I’ll give it a go, I don’t know you, you don’t know me, maybe nobody will read this! But to get my feelings out there will help immensely because I’m not in for an easy ride but I’m so determined to be healthier, happier and feeling good.

It’s midnight and Big Bang theory is just not winning against my bed calling me. Night y’all. Good to be here ❤️